i've been struggling with this small, seemingly simple step in my walk (which often feels more like a slugging drag than it does a gallop): surrender. what is it, first of all, and how do i successfully execute it? what is it in my heart that is intercepting this plunge forward? how can i let go of that thing if "letting go" is my challenge at hand? it's really problematic when you think of it like that.
i don't have much to say other than: this is the wall i'm facing. it's my road block, my barrier, my obstacle. my heart is deeply entangled with a few things i know will be hard to cut. possessions, relationships, activities, thoughts... i don't even know if some of them will ever be "cut" but i trust that, with time, they can gradually be loosened and not hold such a firm vise on the way that i conduct myself.
this song just yells at me now as i think about all of this. it makes me feel like it is so simple, and He is so good. i am simply a Daisy.
i plan on just letting these lyrics and this idea filling up my brain and heart.
Daisy, give yourself away,
Look up at the rain
The beautiful display,
of power and surrender
Giving us today,
when she gives herself away

Rain, another rainy day,
It comes up from the ocean
To give herself away,
She comes down easy
Oh rich and debt, the same,
When she gives herself away,

Let it go,
Daisy let it go
Open up your fists
This fallen world,
Doesn't hold your interest,
Doesn't hold your soul,
Daisy let it go

Pain, give yourself a name,
Call yourself contrition,
Avarice or blame
Giving isn't easy,
And neither is the rain,
when she gives herself away

Daisy, why another day?
Why another sunrise?
Who's will take the blame,
For all redemptive motion?
And every rainy day,
when he gives himself away